I know that no one currently visits this site, but I feel the need to explain some things anyway.
Over the past year I’ve been on a journey to figure some things out. I’ve been working on trying to get my shit together and find out what it means to grow up. I went back to my roots some and plunged into all of the things I knew when I was younger. I started playing cello again, I started working with a personal trainer, I even went back to school.
It might sound like I was throwing spaghetti at the wall, and maybe I kind of was. But my goal was to learn some new things. Things about the world, things about myself, literally anything I could to try to find the next right step for myself.
During this last term at school I was overwhelmed in a way that made me want to shut down completely. One of the teachers was non-existent and another graded so harshly I was afraid that my 4.0 was in jeopardy. I wanted to quit. Well, I did quit, but I didn’t quit that term. What actually happened was the most unexpected thing…
In September Hurricane Helene plowed through my town and took some of my roof with it, as well as knocking out all of the power in the city. I attempted to stick it out with a leaking roof and without power while it was 90 degrees outside and getting dark at 7pm, but when they shut off the water I had to get out of here. Extreme heat makes me very sick and my last line of defense was cold showers. On top of that, I couldn’t fathom not being able to flush the toilets.
Due to the storm, I got a much needed break from that school work. I couldn’t do much else, but I was able to relax knowing that I would be given the extra time. When I got to the AirBNB that I booked that did have electricity and running water, I emailed all my professors and let them know and set up plans to submit my work for the last two weeks of school. I didn’t know it yet, but one of my classes would take 4 whole days of me doing nothing else to complete. For someone who adores music as much as I do, this class made me hate it.
That’s actually one of the reasons I had decided I wanted to be a teacher. I wanted to be one of those teachers who make you excited to learn and show up every day, not one of those teachers that makes you hate a subject you once loved.
Anyway, the overwhelming school work coupled with the storm helped me put some things into perspective. It helped me to decide what was important to me and help me organize my mind and my time to make it happen. The experience was incredibly frustrating, but it might have just been what I needed.
I’ll be working on some projects coming soon and I have a plan for this site that I’m going to be working on as well. If you’re here, which would surprise me, please stay tuned!